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| I thought I was pretty immune to sad event (eg. I thought my EQ was super high), but I did indeed affected by others! Looking at thoughts of those I (still) cared, it took me 3-4 days to fully recover and get back to normal! The positive side is that, similar to the previous time, I have done lots of thinking and at the end get out of the "down side" as a better person again - more productive, more determined, and have a even more clear picture of my life!
It's hard to get motivated during happy time for sure!
I'm not a big fan of changing everything to Happy Holiday. While I am not a raciest for most of the time (I don't think there are too many people on this earth who can claim themselves a 100% non-raciest and will treat everyone equally), in Canada this multicultural country we should support and show appreciative of each other's religious event. Maybe because of the fact that I'm pretty much have no religion, I do love to see celebration from other cultures...Budda, Hindu, Jewish, Christian/Catholic etc. So, I love to see a merry christmas sign (instead of happy holiday which means nothing to me).
On the other hand, here's my personal experience from my previous job. We have Christmas lunch party on the 24th before taking the rest of the day off after lunch (which wrapped up at about 230-3pm). There's one girl who (for religious reason), said that if the partners insist on throwing a christmas party instead of a Holiday gathering/celebration, then she would skip the lunch part although she wouldn't mind to see others celebrating Christmas. One pretty "determined", isn't it? The climax of the story actually is not this, as the partner has decided and told her that, since she get paid for the full day on 24th and she is not coming to the Xmas party, she'll need to work her way through until the rest of the day to 430pm, and she did (at least until I left at 3pm anyway). Amazing indeed. By the way, the girl is getting married now and moved away from the City and get a new job after she got married...
There're definitely lots of different kind of people here. For those that wouldn't mind Christmas, Have a Merry Christmas! For others, I guess I should say enjoy your holiday~ | | |
| WISH
Wish everyone could be healthy, especially the three "Changs"
Wish everyone could be happy, and be able to dine with close family members every night
Wish everyone can be honest and there'll be no more lie...I'll definitely avoid the use of forever and never from now whenever possible
Wish I know how to handle all situations, and make everyone honest, happy and healthy, including myself.
BUSY
Who would have thought that, without a full time job, I can still end up with a super busy life without enough time to sleep? lol
- marking online assignments take more time now as the 10 weeks module are compressed to 8 weeks now
- doing exercises and sleeping early takes lots of commitment
- keeping in touch with my existing friends requires lots of efforts especially around Christmas time
- getting to know new freinds and referrals requires even greater efforts
- finding a job requires lots of time too, including coffee, meeting, interviews, not to mention job search, cover letter and resume
- starting a business doesn't help too....
I'll try my best to refrain myself from getting into PS3 for the first time.... | | |
| I feel like I'm being a hyprocrite....
I love to make lives better for others, especially for those that are closed to me. Buying $20 worth of almond chocolate from the children doing fundraising on the street is small thing, helping out friends in need is a must.
Somehow I have to doubt myself - did I make live so much worse for you? After persuading you to switch job, you've gone through divorse, major dental work for yourself, extra excessive stress by working 75+ hours per week sicne, major health issue for your mom, and now leaking and need to replace furnance all in 7 months? Although I'm not a big fan/believer of chinese "wind water" and related theories, I do wonder if you haven't change jobs how different would you life be now.... probably won't be worse? probably won't have a laptop and won't need to go back to the office to grab laptop's power adapter and start the conversations that leads to only 2 ppl in your house now? probably have less work stress as working 40-45 hours week + extra time for travel = 50 hours week only for career? also less stress now as there would be another one to look after your house and your mom when you're busy, and to share the financial burden that popped up since? The answer to all of the above is a most likely yes (although I don't think the power adapter above is the major reason for the divorse, but nevertheless still), so does it mean I have made your life much worse, contrary to what I was trying to do in the first place? *sigh*
Back to the topic of hyprocrite, with all the troubles and issues that are going through your life, I do really, really want to offer my assistant and make your life better. However, since you're short of time and resource already, I feel that the best I can do is to not taking any more resource from you (eg. time), and i should only support you mentally or when only you ask, as I don't think there's anything that I could really help otherwise...
- do you want accompany? probably not as you're short on time to do all the tasks that you need to complete. that's why I should celebrate the birthday by myself this year, and not bug you before end of June even though I've mostly finished packign and have nothing much to do (can't remember the last time I typed this much personal thoughts of mine out..dated way back to the year 2000 I believe)
- do you require technical help that I can provide? probably not unless it's computer issues, as I can't fix a furnace and I'm no doctor/nutricient myself to offer any health advice, nor am I any magician as I can't create any miracle to heal everything and cure all wounds
- do you require financial assistant? your huge expenses must be depleting your saving, yet as you're an accountant too I'm sure you have enough resource for now, and just offering resource to you seems to be pretty offensive and "think low" on you and your ability. Beside, my net equity is barely $5k now so any of my help would need to come from the LOC as well, but if I have to max out my LOCs to help, I would still love to - that's what good friends are still for, seriously. (and that's why I don't have a lot of good friends...huh)
So at the end, I would love to help, yet I can only help by "saying" that I want to help and "praying" for you and "supporting" you mentally, after making your life much worse than otherwise.....Sounds like that's what a hyprocrite would do, isn't it? Damn me....why could this happen, and what can I do now to alleviate the situation and make life better for you, albeit slightly? Haven't feel this useless for a long time........
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| Can't believe there's only one more weekend before I have to leave Toronto, for good! Although deep in my heart I know that I'll be in Toronto for less than 2 years, and so didn't plan to establish anything while my time in Toronto, at the end, I do feel that something has already grown in my heart about Toronto, as I am starting to miss Toronto already!
First to say goodbye to is Renee, then Suzanne, Zahir, and now Edmond/Mei etc. I'm actually surprised how many good people I've met during the last 22 months. I wonder how many of you guys are going to take my offer for free Vancouver tour when you visit?
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| About being mentally labeled aged 80+ by "someones", I've done some deep thoughts and think about what makes me the person I am now. I do realized that the events that happened to me between I was age 12 to 20 has changed me dramatically and speed up my thinking and maturation process a lot, including getting bullied by the whole school including staff, getting no respect at home, and of course about my university years in which I have the crazy sleeping schedule to sleep between 830pm to 330am. Due to those bad times, it makes me trying to come up with what has happened to my life, and what can I do to make it better, and of couase lead to the question, what do I want my ideal life to be. This process I would say has made me steps much closer to being a philosopher lol
Was explaining what do I really want in life, and how different my objective is with others. Usually, the brighter people in our society will have objectives such as "I want to achieve this level in my career", or "I want to have a successful relationship at home", or "I want to have a perfect body that is healthy". (The not-so-bright people have no life objectives at all). However, I differ from them as i don't need to achieve any certain level in my career/health/relationship to be happy, as trying to boost up my career will usually mean sacrifing the other 2 issues (eg. got to stay late and spend less time with friends and family), as a result regular people won't be able to be happy in the process. i on the other hand focus on the enjoy part, as I realized that I just want to ENJOY my time with family and friends in a worry-free manner. Main part is enjoy, while worry-free includes health and money, and family and friends is pretty self-explanatory. However I only have one goal, not three (relationship, money, and healthy), as I don't need to be a CA, don't need to have a financially stable job, don't need to have all family and friends with me, and don't require a perfect health to enjoy my life.
Totally not consice on the above....sorry~
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